Couplex 2022-01-13 08:03:03

You do the right thing, to group for yourself all your favorite sounds in your pack, this is a very good idea, I would also advise you to sample all the sounds that you like and throw in the same pack

Quarl 2022-01-18 13:16:34

In regards to "if anyone reads these," don't sweat that. I've had people go through all my old posts and comment on stuff that was over ten years old. You're an artist and making a statement is an important means to communicate your existence. If you just post content without saying anything you are just a webpage to everyone that stops by. Force people into seeing you as a human, not just a webpage to be used.

Not sure if you ever finished the sample pack but I've been loving the Jamuary material. I see you, I love the music, and I respect you as a peer ^o^

Quarl 2022-01-18 14:49:39

You just described perfectly what many of us feel. Being a creative person comes with many conflicting feelings. Being your own worst critic is how you get to a more mature sound but that same criticism can paradoxically lead to self loathing, discomfort, and disillusionment. I also hear stuff other artists make and envy their ability to music the way they do but you always need to remind yourself that you do your own thing.

I've had long droughts where I wasn't writing anything at all. I got mad at a younger composer once because they were experiencing a period where they "just felt like the music flowed freely out of their hands." I tried keeping that envious feeling bottled up because I knew it was petty but music envy is very real. It's why I'm always trying to be positive, we all have these primal feelings.

I had to relearn how to have fun while writing music because it can feel like a chore sometimes. That loss of joy over time is such a huge killer of inspiration. There were a few years where I would open the DAW and say "I hate music. This is fucking stupid. Why am I doing this?" I think that leads to the idea that you do it for the final product, that completing a song or animation is what makes you happy when in all actuality there might be a deeper psychological problem going on.

I think what ultimately pulled me out of my rut was when I dropped some hard earned money on an 88 key CDP-S100. I loved playing the piano in college and the fact that I only ever wrote music on cheap keyboards was dreadfully stupid. Bought my first digital piano with weighted keys maybe two years ago? It's all just a circular process of learning, deconstructing what you learn, loving what you do, then hating what you do, then loving it again ¯\_(ツ)_/¯